-Wednesday, April 19, 2006

today seems to be blogging day, or maybe it's just release every pent up emotion till i'm so drained i can't think anymore and my mind becomes a void space that contains no thought of you, of us or anything else that ever happened, could happen, will never happen. that sounds good.

i'm trying, really i like to think i am. but it isn't good enough for you is it? how you can just be so cold scares me. but it also forces me to face up to the cold hard fact that maybe it is time to let go. i'm hanging on, hoping there'll be a miracle anytime. later, tonight, tomorrow. but it'll never come will it. you are right, we should end all this before it gets out of hand. everything's so cold, you're cold and so am i. it's so real i can feel it, my heart turning cold. enough

11:18 pm