-Wednesday, June 21, 2006

I HATE MY LACK OF URGENCY WHEN IT COMES TO STUDYING

you know how sometimes when people continually ask you about a particular issue or someone and you end up thinking about it when initially you'd never have given it more thought or it's an idea you may have briefly toyed with before dismissing it? i hate that. cumulative effects theory. so now i have this thought planted deep in my head, which absolutely refuses to be uprooted despite the many attempts and it's annoying the hell out of me cos it's not something i ever gave much thought to or contemplated.

stop fucking messing around with my head.

Back me down from backing up
Hold your breath now it's stacking up
Etched with marks, but I can deal
And you're the problem and you can't feel
Try this on, straightjacket feeling
so maybe I won't be alone
Take back now, my life you're stealing

Yesterday was over
Today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all I ever thought you'd be
That face is staring holes in me again

Trust you is just one defense
off a list of others, you don't make sense
Beg me time and time again
to take you back now, but you can't win
Take back now, my life you're stealing

Yesterday was over
Today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all I ever thought you'd be
That face is staring holes in me again,
but today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all the things you put me through
I'm holding on by letting go of you

And when the memory slips away
There will be a better view from here
And only lonesome you remains
and just the thought of you I fear
it falls away

Yesterday was over
Today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all I ever thought you'd be
That face is staring holes in me again,
but today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all the things you put me through
I'm holding on by letting go of you

12:11 am